hangin in there

"Hangin in there" is the best way that I can describe how I'm feeling this week. At approximately 34 weeks, I find that most of the time I am exhausted, moody, emotional, spaced out, and in pain. I miss the days of marveling at my ever growing tummy, and I often try to remind myself how huge of a blessing it is to have such a tiny little miracle growing inside my body. Part of me knows that I will miss being pregnant once Joshua is born, and I try to hold onto that, but most of the time I feel too exhausted to enjoy much of anything. Pregnancy has just kind of become a part of me... just something else that defines my daily life right now. It's very sad for me to hear myself as I type these words because how on earth could I think of this precious gift as a burden?? How can I wake up each morning, touch my belly, and think of anything but how beautiful it is to have another day with Joshua all to myself, healthy and happy as can be? Tyler and I are so incredibly blessed. I cannot even count the number of ways that God has been so very present and evident in our lives throughout our marriage (and of course before as well) - including a wonderful pregnancy with no real serious complications. So then I am faced with the realization that this ending time of pregnancy is just another test of patience for us - a pretty constant theme for our past few months. It is a lesson that is not coming easily learned for me - but a very important lesson indeed! So as the weeks go by and Baby Joshua continues to take his time, I am praying for excitement. I'm praying for energy and the desire to go out and enjoy life instead of sleeping inside all day. I'm praying for contentment and joy in the things that God has me doing right now in life instead of longing for the next season.